Mommy Makeover

So i've lost plenty of weight now!!! Im back down to my "normal" size. I do cardio workouts 4-5 days a week and use my resistance bands and do side planks for my abs. yesterday i went boot camp style when you do that thing when you jump to your hands and feet on the floor and push yourself back up and do those over and over. anyways i did a ton of those. my endurance has really increased. im proud of myself. I eat well, i definatley keep my calorie intake under 1600 a day. Normally i have a banana and coffe in am, a handful of almonds for a snack, lunch i have chicken and spinach or chicken and brocolli, or somedays i will make a protien shake, my lunch is always very small so that i dont get sick when i exercise since i eat then wait 5 minutes and jump on my stationary bike and do my sets for 30-45 minutes. at night is when i have my most calorie intake and i really need to stop that. last night i had a small serving of spaghetti and sausage meatballs and a small salad then i snacked on an apple before bed. i just need to have my shake and a small salad or veggie some nights instead of a full meal. i've been reading a lot about zigzagging calories.

I was already overweight before i got pregnant. (Too comfortable in my relationship ie: eating out all the time, watching movies and ordering take out and delievery, drinking beer, not exercising, going out all the time) so when i got pregnant i was already at the biggest i had ever been. Anyways i gained tons of weight during my pregnancy. I ate tons of fruits and veggies and guzzled a half gallon of milk everyday. i craved watermelon cherries and milk. I DID eat a lot of fast food too since i was so lazy and i didnt exercise at all because i was just so huge that the weight was unbearable. I remember justin would go on long walks with me my last few weeks and the pressure from carrying a 10 pound baby all the way forward was too much for me. I looked like a pregnant jaba the hut!!! i was so big and swollen. My feet were so big they couldnt fit in tennis shoes. My legs swelled so bad that i got stretch marks behind my knees on on the back of my calves. My boobs were giant and my stomach looked like i was carrying triplets. People often asked me if i were having triplets! not just twins! can you believe that? My face was so fat and swollen. I hated being pregnant.

it took me awhile and i am down 30 pounds from my original pre pregnancy weight and i weigh the same as i did when i first started dating Justin. But pregnancy changed my body. My stomach was SO big during my pregnancy and i swelled up so bad that it left me with loose skin and fat on my tummy i cant get rid of. I look fine with clothes on but If it werent for my tummy i would be a size 6. Which is beyond perfect for me. (I like being curvy i dont like the look of bones and ribs!!) I know it's very taboo to talk about plastic surgery, but i've been looked at by over 10 plastic surgeons online that told me that there is no diet or exercise program that will fix my stomach. i have to have excess skin removed. I have my consultation with Dr Melody Lynd today and i've very excited and nervous. How much is it going to cost? Will the finance company finance me? Who is going to take care of me while i recover? How much work will i miss? I've been on this website called realself.com educating myself about the risks, the pros, the cons, about scars about infections and compression garments and creams and scar gels and recovery time and options and even about a mommy makeover. that sounds great to me. Justin and i decided no more kids. JJ was enough for us and we are so happy just the three of us. If we have another one it wont be for a LONG time anyway. and i want my body back. Do you know how uncomfortable it is to always be pulling down my shirt over my stomach when i reach for something at the store or at work? or not being able to wear something really cute because it shows my stomach too much? im fine the way my legs are, im fine with my arms, i think i have a pretty face. i just want a regular tummy again. I'm going to ask the doctor today if she thinks i have muscle separation. After carrying a 10 pound baby and pushed my stomach muscles ALL the way forward at least 2 feet. can you imagine having your ab muscles stretched that much for so long? anyways i tried checking myself and i dont feel any separation except around my belly button it feels like a small gap. I dont like the look of womens tummy tuck stomachs when they have their ab muscles stitched together. it looks so flat and fake! I dont want my stomach muscles touched unless i have severe separation. i just want the extra fat that wont budge and the skin cut off. Anyways I will update tomorrow on how my consultation went. I'm excited but nervous. Im glad my mom and justin will be there with me.