So anxious

Im sooo anxious and excited I think my heart is going to pop out of my chest like a bad 80's horror movie!! This weekend we're going to Justins dads to celebrate the holidays & we're leaving bubba with them sunday night so we can go celebrate our anniversary! So it's a double wammie! JJ gets to spend time with his papa and nona and uncle james alone....and Justin and I get to be Justin and Katie again for the night =) its sooooo important to have time as husband and wife....more importantly remembering why you guys fell in love in the first place. We always reminise on little things that brought us so close to eachother....memories that we share that are special to him and i and it's nobody's business. :) Anyways before i get all sappy im so excited to see jj ride on one of the horses with either his papa or nona!!! going to be such a fun weekend. cant hardly contain myself!!!!

:( Today Blows Apples!

..This morning started out good--turned shitty real quick. Justin got a call from his "business partner" and they were arguing. Its a total power struggle thing in my opinion. Anyway things turned sour. I havent talked to Justin all day except when he was at the bank and Ben beeped in on the other line. It's not like him to not call me all day. My stomach is in knots im all worried. I hate feeling like this.

This day sucks! Where did my will power go? I need to find it, and quick! I get all amped up to do good on my diet and then BAM. Failure. Before when i lost those 30 lbs it was sooooo easy. Didnt even feel like eating junk!!!!! then thanksgiving hit...then christmas...then newyears....need i go on? excuses excuses excuses. i need to cut the crap. Tired of being tired n chubby all the time. Justin doesnt make it any easier. He always tells me im beautiful and loves me...but it's more about how I WANT TO FEEL... I was a bad girl on Easter and drank a few glasses of sangria and a slice of cake...ahhhh. naughty!!!!!! still eat plenty of fruits n veggies. but that's just it....i eat too much. Anyway i never have bad days and today is a rareity....:( suck it up katie and be good

Weightloss/Wellness Diet!

So it's offical. I'm back on my weightloss/wellness diet. It's only been 3 days of low carbs no sugars no starches and I can already tell the difference in how my clothes are fitting again. YAY!!! In related news, today I decided to make a commitment to limiting my alcohol intake. I could go years without having to drink because I know im not an alchy, but i do like to induldge and get a lil buzz going. I hate being wasted! yuck! anyway im going to try to cut myself down to 3 glasses of wine per week. No more beer. Beer has so many empty calories and that's a big part of gaining weight...think abuot it if a glass of beer has 110 calories and i have 3 beers that's 330 extra calories a day...times 3 times a week....is 990 calories that i dont need to intake!

I love working out--ok im lying...i love when i am FINISHED working out!!! well at least the first 4 days SUCK--but after i get into a routine i can handle it and feel good. i just get burnt out because i dont take it easy like i am soposed to. I need to get our total gym from justins moms house so either early AM i can do workouts or late PM after i put JJ down for the night! I'm a big fan of pilates, and i looked on youtube and there are tons of pilates for the total gym! wooooo booyah...my sister Michelle is a certf. trainer and told me the only way to burn fat is cardio. Doing crunches and ect is just going to build muscle and tone. FUDGE...i hate cardio... :(

My mom is doing GREAT. She's lost 17 lbs in the past 3 weeks! she found out she was allergic to GLUTEN...the reason why she's always so bloated and swollen. She looks awesome! She works out 5X a week and I'm so happy for her.