Reiki

So I finally did it. I did it!!!

I've been wanting to take Reiki courses since 2005 and i finally got the cajones to do it. and guess what. I LOVE IT. I have my last two attunements this Saturday for Reiki Level 1. Hopefully i can come up with the $250 for Level 2 next month. Level2 i will learn how to do mental healings and distance healings with Reiki symbols. If you dont know about Reiki just google it. I'm not trying to explain it all right now. :::lazy::: I did healings on JJ justin and the dog. JJ pushed my hand away and said it was hot. (means that it was working) the dog let me do it to her head then she got kinda weirded out. Justin loves it. He feels relaxed and said his back felt almost numb and he was able to have a good nights rest.

Anyways its been forever since i posted on my blog. Kinda forgot about it. whoopsie.

Mommy Makeover

So i've lost plenty of weight now!!! Im back down to my "normal" size. I do cardio workouts 4-5 days a week and use my resistance bands and do side planks for my abs. yesterday i went boot camp style when you do that thing when you jump to your hands and feet on the floor and push yourself back up and do those over and over. anyways i did a ton of those. my endurance has really increased. im proud of myself. I eat well, i definatley keep my calorie intake under 1600 a day. Normally i have a banana and coffe in am, a handful of almonds for a snack, lunch i have chicken and spinach or chicken and brocolli, or somedays i will make a protien shake, my lunch is always very small so that i dont get sick when i exercise since i eat then wait 5 minutes and jump on my stationary bike and do my sets for 30-45 minutes. at night is when i have my most calorie intake and i really need to stop that. last night i had a small serving of spaghetti and sausage meatballs and a small salad then i snacked on an apple before bed. i just need to have my shake and a small salad or veggie some nights instead of a full meal. i've been reading a lot about zigzagging calories.

I was already overweight before i got pregnant. (Too comfortable in my relationship ie: eating out all the time, watching movies and ordering take out and delievery, drinking beer, not exercising, going out all the time) so when i got pregnant i was already at the biggest i had ever been. Anyways i gained tons of weight during my pregnancy. I ate tons of fruits and veggies and guzzled a half gallon of milk everyday. i craved watermelon cherries and milk. I DID eat a lot of fast food too since i was so lazy and i didnt exercise at all because i was just so huge that the weight was unbearable. I remember justin would go on long walks with me my last few weeks and the pressure from carrying a 10 pound baby all the way forward was too much for me. I looked like a pregnant jaba the hut!!! i was so big and swollen. My feet were so big they couldnt fit in tennis shoes. My legs swelled so bad that i got stretch marks behind my knees on on the back of my calves. My boobs were giant and my stomach looked like i was carrying triplets. People often asked me if i were having triplets! not just twins! can you believe that? My face was so fat and swollen. I hated being pregnant.

it took me awhile and i am down 30 pounds from my original pre pregnancy weight and i weigh the same as i did when i first started dating Justin. But pregnancy changed my body. My stomach was SO big during my pregnancy and i swelled up so bad that it left me with loose skin and fat on my tummy i cant get rid of. I look fine with clothes on but If it werent for my tummy i would be a size 6. Which is beyond perfect for me. (I like being curvy i dont like the look of bones and ribs!!) I know it's very taboo to talk about plastic surgery, but i've been looked at by over 10 plastic surgeons online that told me that there is no diet or exercise program that will fix my stomach. i have to have excess skin removed. I have my consultation with Dr Melody Lynd today and i've very excited and nervous. How much is it going to cost? Will the finance company finance me? Who is going to take care of me while i recover? How much work will i miss? I've been on this website called realself.com educating myself about the risks, the pros, the cons, about scars about infections and compression garments and creams and scar gels and recovery time and options and even about a mommy makeover. that sounds great to me. Justin and i decided no more kids. JJ was enough for us and we are so happy just the three of us. If we have another one it wont be for a LONG time anyway. and i want my body back. Do you know how uncomfortable it is to always be pulling down my shirt over my stomach when i reach for something at the store or at work? or not being able to wear something really cute because it shows my stomach too much? im fine the way my legs are, im fine with my arms, i think i have a pretty face. i just want a regular tummy again. I'm going to ask the doctor today if she thinks i have muscle separation. After carrying a 10 pound baby and pushed my stomach muscles ALL the way forward at least 2 feet. can you imagine having your ab muscles stretched that much for so long? anyways i tried checking myself and i dont feel any separation except around my belly button it feels like a small gap. I dont like the look of womens tummy tuck stomachs when they have their ab muscles stitched together. it looks so flat and fake! I dont want my stomach muscles touched unless i have severe separation. i just want the extra fat that wont budge and the skin cut off. Anyways I will update tomorrow on how my consultation went. I'm excited but nervous. Im glad my mom and justin will be there with me.

So anxious

Im sooo anxious and excited I think my heart is going to pop out of my chest like a bad 80's horror movie!! This weekend we're going to Justins dads to celebrate the holidays & we're leaving bubba with them sunday night so we can go celebrate our anniversary! So it's a double wammie! JJ gets to spend time with his papa and nona and uncle james alone....and Justin and I get to be Justin and Katie again for the night =) its sooooo important to have time as husband and wife....more importantly remembering why you guys fell in love in the first place. We always reminise on little things that brought us so close to eachother....memories that we share that are special to him and i and it's nobody's business. :) Anyways before i get all sappy im so excited to see jj ride on one of the horses with either his papa or nona!!! going to be such a fun weekend. cant hardly contain myself!!!!

:( Today Blows Apples!

..This morning started out good--turned shitty real quick. Justin got a call from his "business partner" and they were arguing. Its a total power struggle thing in my opinion. Anyway things turned sour. I havent talked to Justin all day except when he was at the bank and Ben beeped in on the other line. It's not like him to not call me all day. My stomach is in knots im all worried. I hate feeling like this.

This day sucks! Where did my will power go? I need to find it, and quick! I get all amped up to do good on my diet and then BAM. Failure. Before when i lost those 30 lbs it was sooooo easy. Didnt even feel like eating junk!!!!! then thanksgiving hit...then christmas...then newyears....need i go on? excuses excuses excuses. i need to cut the crap. Tired of being tired n chubby all the time. Justin doesnt make it any easier. He always tells me im beautiful and loves me...but it's more about how I WANT TO FEEL... I was a bad girl on Easter and drank a few glasses of sangria and a slice of cake...ahhhh. naughty!!!!!! still eat plenty of fruits n veggies. but that's just it....i eat too much. Anyway i never have bad days and today is a rareity....:( suck it up katie and be good

Weightloss/Wellness Diet!

So it's offical. I'm back on my weightloss/wellness diet. It's only been 3 days of low carbs no sugars no starches and I can already tell the difference in how my clothes are fitting again. YAY!!! In related news, today I decided to make a commitment to limiting my alcohol intake. I could go years without having to drink because I know im not an alchy, but i do like to induldge and get a lil buzz going. I hate being wasted! yuck! anyway im going to try to cut myself down to 3 glasses of wine per week. No more beer. Beer has so many empty calories and that's a big part of gaining weight...think abuot it if a glass of beer has 110 calories and i have 3 beers that's 330 extra calories a day...times 3 times a week....is 990 calories that i dont need to intake!

I love working out--ok im lying...i love when i am FINISHED working out!!! well at least the first 4 days SUCK--but after i get into a routine i can handle it and feel good. i just get burnt out because i dont take it easy like i am soposed to. I need to get our total gym from justins moms house so either early AM i can do workouts or late PM after i put JJ down for the night! I'm a big fan of pilates, and i looked on youtube and there are tons of pilates for the total gym! wooooo booyah...my sister Michelle is a certf. trainer and told me the only way to burn fat is cardio. Doing crunches and ect is just going to build muscle and tone. FUDGE...i hate cardio... :(

My mom is doing GREAT. She's lost 17 lbs in the past 3 weeks! she found out she was allergic to GLUTEN...the reason why she's always so bloated and swollen. She looks awesome! She works out 5X a week and I'm so happy for her.

All Settled In

It's sooooooooo good to live in a HOUSE again! I hate apartments and I am NOT good with roommates. We've been in our new spot for almost two months now, and we're pretty much settled in. Still need to do a little more decorating--and a new kitchen table. We're waiting for our laundry room to be built. Justins new business has launched and is pretty successful so far. I'm very proud of him for being able to balance family life and being such a hard worker!

In baby news....Justin Jr. is being potty trained! YIKES! He will get up in the morning and sit on his potty with his jammies on and grunts. HILARIOUS. I'm trying to think of ways of rewarding him when he lets me know he's gotta go. I should have started months ago when he first started telling me..."mama? poopoo?" He's the smartest little guy and im sure he'll catch on soon. We just need to be persistant! He also got his first big boy haircut on Saturday...I was so sad to see his sweet little long hair buzzed off =-[ but he looks so handsome and matches with daddy now!


I'm so glad spring has decided to break past winter! There is nothing as dramatic as springtime--everything is sooo green and lush. I'm not a winter person. Never have. never will be! Now that Justin Jr. is already a year and a half old Justin and I are planning and saving for his 2nd birthday to Disneyland. There is nothing like living in California. I will never think twice about moving back to Nebraska. Anyways my breaks over and I need to get back to work!